The Puzzle of You, by Leah Mercer

This is basically what the provided synopsis says it’s about, for the most part. Charlotte awakes from a crash losing the last 4 years of her memory. She forgot she had a daughter and struggles to accept the life she had been living the past four years. The first 2-4 chapters are Charlotte waking up in the hospital, thereafter the rest of the story is essentially Charlotte trying to decide if she wants to stay home with her daughter or go back to work while balancing an estranged relationship with her husband.

There is no mysterious element with her memory loss because flashbacks are added in throughout the story. Early on, starting with chapter 3, readers quickly know what her old life was like compared to her present life. After chapter 3, the chapters alternate between flashbacks and the present. Do not expect mystery with this.

The themes explored are family, marriage, and women in the workplace—explained below:

  • I love things that give women a voice and advocate for feminism, but this was not insightful towards either. The topic was touched on, albeit surface level, with Charlotte’s workplace and the treatment towards pregnant women, but it was not powerful enough; the story was too mundane.
  • Also, based on the synopsis provided I was expecting a story-line for mothers that was heartfelt and moving; something that was also emotionally family centered like the movie Click or The Family Man, but it was neither. I expected an emotional rekindling with her daughter or captivating connection, and it didn’t happen. The style was bland. We do see a marriage crumbling, and it is easy to relate to; however, it is isolated without intense depth.

The story progresses at a snail-moving pace. Even at 60% (marked on my Kindle) it was still dragging. At 60%, Charlotte is still holding onto remnants of her past (job) while trying to accept bits of her present (daughter); nothing else has happened, the story has stayed completely stagnant at this point. This is much of the story: Charlotte prioritizing and weighing her options. No twists, turns, emotional scenes, or drama. After 60%, it stays on this same path.

Most of the story was anticlimactic, as mentioned above. The climax, in my opinion, was chapter 47; before this chapter the characters experience no growth or change, and little to nothing happened prior to this chapter. Please note there are only 48 chapters.

All in all, this is a story lacking a stimulating plot-line about a mother deciding to go back to work in order to climb the corporate ladder or stay at home with her toddler daughter. While this is a great premise and easy to relate to, feeling like you must choose between your career and a child, it wasn’t executed well. It was very monotonous and simplistic, repeating the same ideas again and again.

*This was an Amazon First Reads pick for October 2019. I do not recommend it.*

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When We Were Vikings, by Andrew David McDonald

I absolutely loved being inside of Zelda’s mind. Zelda, a high functioning young adult diagnosed with fetal alcohol syndrome, has something about her that everyone can relate to. While exploring life’s boundaries, she often compares her world to the Viking world. Though others consider Zelda “not normal”, she considers her life a quest and strives to fulfill her legacy while searching for identity, battling for independence, and overcoming life’s villains.

“I told him that I was used to it. “People call me a retard all the time.””

Her older brother and caregiver, Gert, really pulled on my heart strings as well. He doesn’t always make the right decisions, but I felt like he had good intentions. Gert truly represents the depth and complexity of life’s unexpected turns. Gert’s character speaks volumes, and it is difficult to fully love him or fully hate him.

“We do not have very much money, but Gert is powerful at surviving life’s battles.”

Sexual freedom among the cognitively disabled is a topic explored in this novel. Zelda has intimate feelings for her boyfriend and wants to explore those feelings like most other young adults would. (Please note that there is a long segment on this topic.)

The language was very colorful, and I loved it. Zelda often utilizes her “Word of the Day”, but she also mimics the language of her peers and environment. As a result, this book is filled with adult language, but it made it so much more palpable.

“Those people, the ones who don’t trust Gert, are shit-heels and fuck-dicks, because Gert is one of the smartest people I know, and the bravest…”

I think this book will create excellent conversations and highly recommend it for a buddy read or group read. It has several controversial topics and covers a lot of current issues with cognitively disabled young adults. Though sensitive in subject areas, if you do have a respectful and close reading group it would inspire valuable discussion.

“And sometimes the heroes of legends have to break the rules in order to save the people they care about.”

What are the differences between responsibility and accountability? How do we decide where accountability falls? Can someone who loves you be bad for you? I really enjoyed this book and couldn’t put it down. The last chapter, especially the very last page, had me in tears. I think we can all learn many lessons from Zelda. Thank you Gallery/Scout Press, NetGalley, and Andrew David MacDonald for this copy. Opinions are my own.

More on these topics:
Living with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome
Cognitive Disability and Sexuality
Employment with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome

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Three-Fifths, by John Vercher

**THIS IS AN IMPORTANT BOOK WITH AN IMPORTANT TITLE.**

John Vercher revolutionizes urban fiction with crime, contemporary issues, mystery, and thriller in his debut novel, Three-Fifths, and the outcome blew me away. During various points, I sat at the edge of my seat with bones shaking, eyes tearing, and my heart racing. Although it directly faces controversial topics such as racism and class differences head on, it surpasses those topics and brought me to tears simply as a parent, sister, friend, and human being. It is wrapped in a realism that occurs nearly every day.

The novel starts off with Bobby, an asthmatic young adult, walking back from work when he runs into his lifelong best friend, Aaron, who has just been released from prison. Riding home together, he quickly learns that Aaron views have changed and, terrified, continues driving him to the food mart where he witnesses Aaron’s criminal acts verifying his new allegiance to the Brotherhood. Bobby struggles with his own identity throughout the novel, hiding under his white features and the secret that he is really mixed. No one knows that his father, who was never around his entire life, is black. He feels like he cannot even rely on his own mother most of the time, and now feels his best friend has betrayed him. Now caught at a cross-roads drowning in accountability, Bobby’s racial divide antagonizes his relationships.

The reader also sees Bobby’s mother, Isabel, who is a single white mom struggling to make ends meet. She wants a better life for her son, but her job as a waitress and her own self-coping mechanism, being alcohol, sometimes create a barrier. “But halfway through the month, she and Bobby were still short on rent, and their need for shelter took priority over pride.” Her son, Bobby, is all she has and is willing to do whatever it takes to pave a way for him. But can she defeat her own monsters? She often wonders if she has made the right decisions and questions her judgment as a parent.

Robert, the doctor who receives the patient that Aaron assaulted the night he was with Bobby, also plays a major role in the story. With his co-workers and family members, we see a successful man who wrestles to accept his own identity. “…there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t look in the mirror that I don’t see a black man before I see a doctor. Because I have to.” Robert’s prose contends to express the racial barrier in society that sometimes goes unnoticed. 

Both a humbling and intense read, I cannot recommend this book enough. Read the whole thing and don’t stop. Be prepared to be all in your emotions. Have tissues and be ready to have a book hangover. This story resonated with me on a personal level in more ways than one and is a story will stay with me for a long time. Please note, however, that there is an abundance of vulgar language and violence in this novel, so it might not be for everyone.

Thank you again and again to John Vercher for creating this important and inspirational story. An amazing debut novel that I highly recommend to others. Thank you to Netgalley and Agora books for allowing me the opportunity to read this piece of fiction. I will be following this author and eagerly waiting for his next book.

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All That’s Bright and Gone, by Eliza Nellums

“My gramma’s dead,” I explain. “I don’t have a daddy.” That’s what my Mama always says. She says I’m like a Cabbage Patch doll, that she found me growing in a garden and took me home. 

Six-year-old Aoife attempts to navigate life amidst a winding family dilemma. With her mother recently institutionalized and her brother Theo dead, Aoife seeks to unearth the truth of her brother’s death with the help of her imaginary friend.

The emphasis of this book is on family and mental illness. Does a mental illness mean you are not capable of love? Can a damaged family heal? Is lying okay if it protects those closest to you?

Told from Aoife’s point of view, the tone throughout the story was childlike, yet astute. Her playful imagination revealed her childlike innocence even amid crisis. “Sometimes when grown-ups ask if you can do something, they are really just telling you to do it.” As a result of a six-year-old point of view, it was a quick, easy, and enjoyable read. On the other hand, for such a young age that provided the POV, it limited the use of language and literary devices in the story. Still, a delightful story.

A wonderful debut novel. Many thanks to Crooked Lane Books, Eliza Nellums, and NetGalley for the advanced copy in exchange for my honest review.

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It Ends With Us, by Colleen Hoover

Do not let the summary that is provided for this book deceive you. Simply by reading the synopsis one would assume this is a modern romance. Yet, the focus is actually on domestic violence and its affect on relationships.

It follows the story of Lily Bloom, a young adult who seeks to avoid marrying an abusive man like her father. The reader peeks into her life as a teenager in an abusive home through the journal entries that she wrote as a teen. We see her mother stay with her father after abusing her time and time again, but Lily is only able to reconcile her mother’s past when she is put in the same situation as a young adult.

The reader is taken on a rough ride with Lily as she tries to navigate romance in young adulthood. She realizes that many people question the woman and not the abuser– asking why does she stay with him, rather than asking the question why is he being abusive and why is it okay for him to do that. She comes to understand that it is not easy to leave and a multitude of factors must be considered. The character Lily Bloom gives these women of domestic violence a voice. It was bittersweet to see these words expressed on paper through the character of Lily for others to read, hear, and try to understand. 

If you have ever been in an abusive relationship or an abusive home, then this book will really hit home for you. Have a tissue box ready. This is a hard book to get through and deals with a variety of distressing events.

The Author’s Note is a must read as it explains the author’s personal accounts that led to this story, but do not read it until the end since it contains spoilers.

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